Busy Sept ahead

Shifting through the list of potential renters who responded to my ads... with a lot of 'scammers' asking for all the nonsense as they tried to strike up conversations with me... these are tell tale signs of 'fishing tactics' so I have to make it short and sweet to weed them out.

Anyway, I managed to find another interested renter who is really looking for a slot in my rental co-sharing ad. But the problem is my Hubby didn't like him. With the market price going lower as more rooms are available with many workers leaving SG as the factories are closing due to inflation... I don't want to be too picky. Beside, it's mental stress doing so many screenings with insincere scammers wasting my time.

So it took me a long day trying to convince my Hubby to give this renter a chance. So I can be freed up to look for other incomes as I already lost a government payout since this month. Plus there are other tenants in the house, they can help train the new renter the house rules too. If not suitable, we can always terminate and look for a new one. But at least, let him come in and prove if he can submit to our home culture first.

Took me 3 days to finalized the paperwork involved as this renter has some legal complications and I need him to ask his company to provide proof of his renewal for work permit, all the govt stuff as I also liaised with the Housing officer to get approval, etc. We know he's older than me, and yes... has certain bad habits of a China man as he seems not able to listen or respond with respect, a smoker and drinker which we are not fond of so we informed him as stated in the ad's rules, not to smoke or get drunk in the house, unless it is for our occasional celebration with the tenants, then we might drink a bit.

Well, I just want to finish my search for tenant and moved on to other sources to look for more incomes. If everything goes well, he can move in officially on 1st Sept.

In view of my govt pay cut... and my volunteering group manager asking if anyone can conduct zoom training classes... I decided to take up the offer and ask how can I help. Even though the organization don't pay much to the trainer per class ($25 small token for 2 & a half hour lesson), but to me... I can do it from home. Every little amount helped. So I will start teaching from Sept 3rd, once a week for 12 weeks per class. I am so surprised that they are looking for trainers to teach in the day time as usually most classes are at nights, and I cannot commit in the past due to my evening thrice a week. Now as their training classes are expanding, I think I found myself a little source of income if they have more day time classes in future.

So I also asked my engineer to help me to sort out my small laptop issues. I have feedback my voice was choppy and thus not clear on the zoom meetings previously. I need to settle this before my lesson next Tues. Perhaps my Elder Sister's recent rejection of the new laptop she ordered is a blessing in disguise too, it will come in handy for me when my engineer get the new parts from China shipment arriving by 2 weeks' time and he can re-configure the better version for me. Meanwhile, he told me he will try to help me fix the laptop this Sunday when he's finally off work/rest day.

Meanwhile, being one of the finalists in an award nite with another organization next month... my volunteer group leader also alerted me about the organization's post and they try to vote me for the popularity contest via online too. Even though the awards will still be decided by the panel of judges, I'm just happy to see my network giving me a like and some commented on my big heart. Awwww they're so sweet!

And I also saw the little boy whom I cared for under the guardianship for foreign students 2 decades ago... whom I always thought him as my Godson as I used to read the bible every night and prayed for him while he was under my care for 5 over years... now he's a big man at 30. He used to visit me occasionally but he gotten busy with his adult life after graduation. And he used to confide in me about his ideal partner, etc. He told me he will focus on his studies and career first, and not date until he is sure of a godly wife who will serve in the ministries with him. And he kept his words while I think of him and pray the same prayers for him all the time.

Ohhhh my, now seeing him propose to his girlfriend made me cry literally! My little boy is all grown up! I messaged him and he was happy too that I have gone back to church. After all, I was his spiritual Mama. I told him I'm celebrating our 29th anniversary next month and he agreed to meet us for a weekend dinner once I confirmed a date for that. So pleased my Godson is coming to see us!

Honestly, my wild days experiencing with SEX is over. For those who know me long ago, you will know after 10 years of marriage, I went looking for a sperm donor as my Hubby can't make me pregnant.We went for checkup and finally identify the problem was with my Hubby. And yes, I did all the nonsense for my quest to be a mother. But none came to pass... I was just digging wells with no water.

It may be hard for some of you to understand, but it was common to blame the woman for not birthing a child in Asian culture, and a man can divorced the wife and seek another woman to bear a child to carry on the heir. Or the first wife will have to accept the man demoting her to 2nd wife in this type of situation. Plus being in the church environment, I felt condemned as everyone around me getting married and having kids while I don't have a child. Some even sneered at me and wounding me further with accusations that I have sins in my life, so GOD don't give me kids... blah, blah, blah. Ouchs, that was so painful and I left church eventually.

I'm glad with medical advancement, now it can prove not all infertility lay with the women.

I like a more peaceful quiet life now, just helping in the community whenever I can while nursing my health. All that are bridges over troubled water for me now. I am contented with my mentally ill Hubby who went through the challenging decades seeing me in other men's arms for the quest of a child.

It's been quite a roller coaster day of all type of feelings... but the thought of being a spiritual mama and now seeing my god child being happy and going to get married next year... I felt so emotionally when I was a childless woman and yet GOD gave me the experience of being a Mama he looked up to. Awww, I still want to cry... but in joy and gratefulness.

Looking forward to next month... may more blessings come in.