As I'm losing weight for health reason, my vascular surgeon scanned my arm AV fistula and said my vein has narrowed as a result of slimming. That will not be ideal for my dialysis so they scheduled me for another round of angioplasty next month. Ohhh, I hated this procedure the most as ballooning of the vein can be sooooo excruciating.
Not gotten think too much about this yet... coz in 3 weeks' time, it's my birthday! I have been thinking how to celebrate this year? Every year I always prepared food to treat my friends, family and tenants at home. It's so tiring to do all that prep work alone. And now with this procedure coming up 10 days before my birthday, I'm wondering if I should just give myself a break as my arm will need rest after that.
Then I asked myself, why do I always be the giving one always think of everyone's needs first? When I asked these guests to meet for my birthday, they will tell me which days they are available and I always accommodate to their wants instead of me being the main person of my own celebration. Even my Hubby said why am I so foolish to spend on others and not on myself?
Thinking back, quite true. I will ordered expensive seafood & ingredients that what my guests like to eat, even though I myself don't eat much after my gastric sleeved surgery. Then I ended up being the therapist again listening to their work woes, their problems while they enjoyed the food. In the end after everyone left, I still have to clean up all by myself.
A part of me is a little weary... year after year, I'm always putting others before self. I'm thinking, if this year I can be brave enough to do something different. Can I mustered the courage to go to a restaurant I wanna try out, sit there and relax doing people watching? But I'm a little fearful coz I will be sitting in an electric wheelchair and might be an eye sore in town area.
The expensive transportation by medical van is an issue, to get manpower to carry my 44kg wheelchair up and down my non lift access apartment another issue, etc. Will my health gives me problem when I am out alone? This pretty hot heaty weather in SE Asia is quite the killer to venture outdoor. I did feel my eyes stinging from the sun rays and need to wear sunglasses in the day when I'm out. And even felt so giddy with a headache if prolonged exposure in the heat. Hmmmm, so much to think about.
Sigh, not sure if it is feasible. Such a simple task a normal person do will takes so much effort for me. So I'm still considering how to go about the birthday planning.
However, I have already ordered my birthday dress, just a simple red spaghetti A-line dress. Definitely I'm avoiding Turkish restaurants in order not to be reminded of my ex lovers. I'm thinking if I wanna try Mexico food? I have seen some meat buffet videos and they looked so tempting! But SG only has one Mexico meat buffet in town and seems like the reviews ain't that great. So I'm still looking...
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I always thought that the person celebrating the birthday was supposed to be treated special by friends and family and spoiled on their birthday and not have to cater to the people attending and considering you have a medical procedure scheduled shortly be your birthday you shouldn’t have to provide and do all the work yourself.
As for going out to celebrate, why not? It sounds like a good idea. I know it’s hot right now and in Thailand it’s no different, I know I get cooked every day lol. I’m sure nobody would care if you went to restaurant with good AC and had your celebration there in fact your guest might even appreciate it.
But at the end of the day it’s your birthday, so you do whatever makes you the happiest and enjoy yourself.
@Dusty_bawls02
I agreed with you too, but guess my friends ain't the type to spoil me. So I need new friends! Haha!
But adult friendships are hard these days, everyone is so busy with their own lives and commitments. Plus as we get older, the diet needs changes and so hard to plan for a meal out sometimes. So I still trying to see how to plan for this upcoming birthday. As you also reminded me, try to plan for something that makes me happy!
And yessss, I saw the News earlier highlighting the sweltering heat in the SE region. How hot is Thailand now? I heard some areas in Thai are higher than 40 degrees! Omg, no wonder you're cooked! Best to stay indoor in aircon and drink more refreshing cooling drink to keep yourself hydrated too, my friend.
@Lady_Elizabella .
I think it’s always good to make new friends , but you’re right, sometimes it can be difficult. I don’t go out of my way these days to meet people, but I’m always polite and willing to talk to different people and does form some new friendships.
I live in Chiang Mai and we have had temperatures in high 30s and low 40s here over the past few weeks and it’s extremely uncomfortable. But I do try to stay indoors and keep myself hydrated.