True Crime Drama Review

While scrolling through the youtube for movie or drama, this summary titled 'Religious housewife and mother of two turned out to be a monster with an axe' caught my attention. Yes, I like to watch summaries to see if the story plot is worth time watching.

It turned out to based on the true event about Candace Lynn Montgomery (née Wheeler; born November 15, 1949) who is an American woman accused of murdering her lover's wife, Betty Gore. The killing took place in Wylie, Texas, on June 13, 1980. During the assault, Gore was struck 41 times with a wood splitting axe. Montgomery pleaded not guilty to charges of murder on the basis of self-defense, alleging that Gore confronted her about an affair she had with Gore's husband and attacked her with the axe. She was acquitted.

As I watched the snippets from the summary, I felt myself identifying with certain parts of the story. She was about 30 years old when it happened... after 10 years of boring marriage life with her husband who drifted away and not showing her attention. She tried to convert her energy to church but in those era, women are not allowed to be in 'leadership' or suggest to start anything. Her yearning to be looked at as a human being with emotions led her to committing affair. I totally felt that.

It is like my own life being repeated on the screen. I tried my best to raise up as an assistant leader in my church, putting my energy there but the men do not like women who are so strong like me. Even though many times I prove to be better in certain tasks organization than them. Come on, women can multi tasks but the church men won't admit that or allow the women to shine better than them.

After a decade with my Hubby who's only addicted to porn and not even looking at me while having sex, my heart also longed for emotional attachment. And yes, I had my first affair when I was 29 through online chatting, then a year later I flied to meet my lover. Just like Candy's affair partner Alan, whose wife got pregnant again so she can't give him sex. My first lover's estrangled wife was still pregnant with 2nd kid too but he told me he can't divorced her yet until the child is born (their religion law). They did divorced after she gave birth a year later.

But Europe Crisis in 2008 hit so he said he need to restart everything again and we lost touch after awhile. I didn't know he created a fake FB profile and hid in my friend list as FB game mate for many years. He waited till he finished paying the alimony to his ex wife and 2 kids before contacting me again. But by then my health has suffered from a freak incident and I do not want to be a burden to him as a foreign spouse. So I also asked him to move on and he married someone from his province a year later. He was the first and only guy who made an effort to rekindle. For that, he's the one whom I do agreed that he's more than a man for me.

Yes, I also struggled with my spiritual vs my physical/emotional needs or wants while caring for my mentally ill and distant Hubby. So far, I had 3 official lovers at different stage of my life, all married ones so I totally know how these married men behaved. After all the fun, they will just move on, go back and hide behind their wives using families as excuses and leave you behind. And the one left behind will felt betrayed and played. I think that's how Candy must have felt. Most women in affairs developed emotional ties, not just the physical part.

So yes, JEALOUSY is a scary emotion that can overwhelm one in lust/love. Whether Candace strike first or Gore, it is hard to know the truth... but we all can agreed 41 strikes as stated is an overkill, only one in pure rage will do so to another due to the Ugly Jealousy Hatred within.

But why Candace did that? And how can she get away with that? A look at her birth date just hit me, she's a Scorpio. Then I rest my peace, coz after meeting a few manipulative Scorpios in my life... they really stings! And yet, they can still play the victim card right after their sins are exposed. With their great observations of human nature, they can really act so well and convinced people who get pulled to their sides to defend them.

In a way, I'm glad I'm not that extreme to wanna hurt another. I always reminded myself these married guys were just 'on loan' to me. I didn't thought of physically harming their wives although there's times these men came to me coz their wives didn't want sex due to health or stress issues. For example my last lover DOST often complained to me as his wife's elderly parents were sick and after their deaths in separate years apart, his wife was in depression and refused to show interests in sex. So he came to me in those years to fulfill his needs for intimacy.

But in the end, he also choose to leave me and gone back to his wife and kid when his wife is showing him affection again. Plus his little girl is growing up and she's another good companion now for him. Being a very well planned Scorpio, he has retreated back to his family as a shield. He did laid low for a few months too when I stopped blogging. I do suspect someone might have alerted him to my blog and that might be how my old profile got blocked.

Until recently after I came in this new profile and blogged about my latest interest, the doctor... DOST suddenly appeared in his social media and just uploaded a family photo with the Turkiye Ambassador for their National & Children's Day (April 23rd) where within a day he gotten 100+ likes. See how well loved he is among his network, no one knows the truth about his affairs. He has convinced everyone he's a saint, a perfect married man with family as he think he's safe now as I have moved on.

Well, I looked back and noticed the same trend... the husbands always start looking elsewhere when they start having young kid/s. The wifes no longer look up to the husbands and busy with the kid/s. Worse is when they also have elderly to care for... so these husbands get bored with endless responsibilities and the moment a woman show them admiration and care, these husbands fell for that.

I know I have become quite good in telling which married guys need that... but I told myself... nah... I'm tired of playing the field too. Too extreme emotions will be bad for my current health. I'm so much at peace now so best not to stir anymore unnecessary emotion or drama.

Did I ever habour any bad thoughts towards DOST's family? When we were still in the affair, not really. I'm just happy for his bread crumbs like attention of once in 3 months' visit with less than an hour each. It was only when he started ghosting me that my anger rose and a lot of awful bad destructive thoughts came to me. I'm glad I didn't act that out due to my mobility issue. If I'm normal, maybe I will be another Candy. So I'm glad for my illnesses that stopped me from doing what my anger wanted to do to them. I'm also glad a part of my conscious still tell me it's nothing to do with the family, it's DOST that hurt me by lying to me using my naive trust in him to do whatever he wants, including telling me to delete all our videos and photos on the promise he will still come back to visit me as friend. When I did as he told and show him, he then start to ghost me.

Now barely 2 years, AI has advanced so much that a still photo can be animated with the person's voice to look real. Scammers are using these to send damning videos and photos to workplaces to force people to pay up, etc. There's so many new ways to punish and take revenge in this crazy era than just physically hurting the person. But I won't do that. I chose to wait for Karma coz I did show him true care and love, even provide gifts and infos for his family for 5 years. I only hated him for lying and using my kindness to betray my trust in him. As long as he didn't keep to his promise to visit me again as friend, he has to pay a price for his own deceit. I do not even need to do anything to him coz word is a power that will come back to the person who didn't do as said.

My therapist is aware of my this relationship as I took some sessions to work out my inner struggles. She asked if I still want to see DOST, to which I thought for awhile and replied... I won't ask him again coz I am not the one breaking my promise. He's the one who can choose if he want to keep his words.

Honestly, he can pretend he never promise, and be it all his life. For my side, my conscious is free as I do not need to live a lying bastard life like he is having. He will be the one living with shame for not able to face me if we shall meet out there. And hopefully, we won't meet coz I don't want to be his cause for another 'depression claim'. Who knows, he might already convinced himself that he's a good man now for going back to his family and leaving his other women aside.

How the lies can continue in this twisted form.

As for me, I told my therapist. I'm not in denial so I cannot confessed that I did a sin. He was a part of my life and it's part of my growing experiences. How can I just confessed as what the church wants in order to get acceptance back into the church? Then pretend nothing happened so as to forgive and forget? Nope, I can't live in denial just to forget as I choose to remember it as part of life lesson.

And partly due to DOST, I'm no longer so keen to teach or assist new foreigner from Turkiye who might be coming to SG to live or work. I do not wish to waste time and energy teaching those who only come here to use us locals as stepping stones then forget about us. Now I rather reach out to locals to help them to get resources to lead a more beneficial lifestyle for themselves. It is my nature to assist others but now learning to be wiser not to get tangled into complicated lifestyle.

Not getting too involved with others these days. Keeping life simple so won't develop too strong emotions that can be harmful to self or others.